I feel a bit… imposter-y.
Pretty sure that’s a word.
As National Infertility Awareness Week rolled ‘round again last week, I plucked some words from the archives and shared them across social media. In the conversations with women who reached out to me, I was grateful for the opportunity to listen and encourage.
The problem lies in not feeling infertile most days. Not because our childless has been resolved (it hasn’t) and not because we are no longer infertile (we are). Especially not because we live in some ‘arrived’ spiritual place where nothing ever hurts and all is lollipops and balloons (it’s not) but for the simple fact that we have been on this road for nearly sixteen years and life looks different further down the road than it does in the trenches.
And so, for those reasons (and a few others) I feel a bit imposter-y.
(That’s starting to feel like a real word, right?)
Here’s the thing, though: my ending does not negate my journey. (I’m preaching to myself, here…) Yes, we remain childless, but I haven’t forgotten. The quiet grief of infertility still lingers, and that’s okay. As we continue down this road of childless living, we occasionally trip over unexpected pebbles and potholes. As with most grief, infertility changes you and molds itself into a part of who you are.
What’s the point, you might wonder?
It’s time for me to talk about it again. I’m going to write about it, give voice to the myriad of emotions, fears and doubts that walk hand-in-hand with infertility, and I’m going to ask the imposter-y feeling to kindly take a hike and leave me alone.
To kick things off in that regard, I’m so thankful for the opportunity to share a brand new resource with you. I have spent the past several months pouring my heart into a FREE printable workbook for those of you walking this road of infertility. As we take a deep breath and realize that Mother’s Day is around the corner, I hope you’ll take advantage of this new resource.
Keep an eye out on May 1st, when you’ll be able to get your own FREE copy.
If you are newer here and don’t know our whole story, I recently sat down with Caley Porter from the Joy + Infertility Podcast – you can take a listen to our story here: Episode 23: A Different Kind of Miracle
So here’s to encouragement and grace in the upside down mess of infertility. Grace & peace, friend.