Len and I were sitting today, recapping the year and trying to decide on the whole what sort of year it turned out to be. It’s not an easy thing… we break our lives into moments, and occasionally it can be difficult to view them as a series of events and view them as a whole. And, as a rule, we teach ourselves to look forward rather than behind, to live in hope, rather than regret or remorse.
In general, I think it was simply a hard year. I’m sure some would be quick to jump in and say, “Oh, it couldn’t have been all bad!” and no, of course it wasn’t. But it was hard. Coming to grips with the reality of our infertility, and dealing with it on a daily basis; being at the clinic and trying to remain positive in the midst of testing and diagnoses. And simply waiting and wondering, and trying to live a normal life while not being entirely sure what normal would be for us apart from parenting.
Was it a bad year? No, I wouldn’t go so far as to say that. There were definite moments of joy; time spent with family and friends, memories made. We lost Tigger, and gained Sacha. We were blessed to celebrate the three year anniversary of our marriage, to vacation with family, to make new friends. We were able to continue to live, work and worship in freedom.
And of course, we have no idea what this coming year will hold. I will start a new job; we will return to the clinic in March or April (which will coincide with our 3 year mark of trying to conceive); we hope to make a trip out to BC this fall… we make our plans, but only God knows where He’ll be leading us.
But we will be here, sharing our journey with those of you who faithfully tune in to my (somewhat inactive of late) bloggie. I will also try to be less sombre in future blogs (insert smiley face here), otherwise we’ll have to attach boxes of Kleenex to our monitors, and really, what fun is that?
Welcome to 2007, y’all! ‘Tis the year of the Pig! More on that in future blogs.